Monday, April 27

Of Delhi and Dilli

*originals*

Standing here at the Rajiv Chowk Metro station, Delhi has astoundingly taken me into it's clenches and I have fallen completely for it. As I enter the station after the security check, it is 10:24 pm and it is as if the world around me has taken up a fast forward mode. Or maybe I have gone into slow motion. Or both. But all I know is that everything is running around me too fast. It is queer, scary, and it is fervent. Whatever I am witnessing right now is anything but explainable. So many colours. So many moves. So many attitudes. So many lives. And among all the hustle-bustle, an unaware, unpolished, coy, me. I am trembling, shaking, unstable. The bottle of Sprite I am holding is slowly slipping away, I realize yet I don't. It is too intense, what I experience. Like a hasty hailstorm in an effortless drizzle. Like a desperate fall in a creamy ride. Like a sudden break of tranquility. Like an acute feeling of insecurity. Like... Like... Like love. Love! Yes, that's what it exactly feels like. The same restlessness. The same heart intrusion. The same incomprehensible intrigue. And the same magic. That's what Dilli does to you. Slowly it shows you all it's highs and lows and arete and flaw. And then makes you fall for it, even the flaws. And it does this to all of us, I'm not Dilli's special guest, we all are. Dilli's targets. Whoremongers visiting a whore - Dilli. For Dilli is a bloody whore, allures and awakes the devil inside of everyone and keeps that devil alive. And it's incredible how you fall in love with an abundance of evil, a dearth of love.
Photo - Colours of a Metro
Credits - Abhay Kumar K


-Sahej \m/
14.05.14

Friday, April 24

My Las Vegas Saga

*originals*

It was 9:30 pm PDT when we walked into the shoe shop in Planet Hollywood. We'd, I with my parents, walked a long distance from our hotel on the famous and infamous strip of Las Vegas showcasing its grandiose hotels and casinos. The whole path, with its untiring entertainers - Batman, Superman, Hulk, bikini-clad babes, made up statues, guitarists, drummers, pranksters and so much more - teamed up with the sheer magnanimity of the lightning and ad boards and fountains and cafes and showrooms, made up for a walk we can never forget, neither want to. We were oblivious to how sinisterly Las Vegas had soaked us in and all we wanted to do was keep walking. Until sense surfaced prevalence and we remembered we were to leave for The Grand Canyon the next morning at five. 

Maa needed shoes so we decided to step into this humble shoe gallery inside Planet Hollywood before grabbing food. One healthy, black girl in her mid-twenties sat behind the counter and a younger blonde stood by her side. Both of them looked up when we entered. "Ha'ya guys doin' t'day?" shouted the black girl from the counter while the white strode confidently towards us and smiled. She had long, straight, golden hair that went so well with her unequivocal face. We all smiled back and my parents got down to business with her.

The girl had a really cute way of leaving each sentence she spoke with a linger in the end. I had to be following the conversation closely considering I could be of help for any accent problems my parents might face. When she directed a question at my father, he looked at me questioningly, and so did she, I noticed. "Aapko kuchh chahiye? She's asking if you need anything," I said in my heavy voice and my father looked at her and said, "No, thank you" in his, to which the blonde smiled and then looked at me. And smiled wider, for reasons unknown, and said, "How about you, sir?" I replied in the negative and moved the other direction of the shop, fiddling with my mobile phone. 

To be fair, it's status quo was all of a camera, and all I was doing was checking out on the pictures I'd clicked. When I looked back over my shoulder after five minutes to where my parents were, I noticed that even Dad had indulged himself in shoes and the girl was heading towards what looked like the store room of the shop to get something.

Bored, I got up and pointed the camera to the mirror in front of me and feasted upon some intense looks on my screen. In the same mirror, right behind me, with two shoe boxes in her hand, stood the white girl, two inches short of me, beaming and looking extremely edible. Especially so, considering the amount of hunger that rung my bells then. "You look good," she teasingly said and puzzled, I looked back at her, "Huh?"

"India, right?"

"Yeah," I replied, "The United States of America, right?"

She scoffed. "Yes. Jessica's the name." And she thrust her hand forward. I wondered how I hadn't noticed when she kept the boxes aside.

I shook her hand, "Hi Jessica," and I looked left, "and..uh..thanks," spoke my afterthought as I looked the side of my parents where the black lady now kept them busy.

Her shining face, relentlessly smiling, brought me back to her even as she struggled to keep the conversation going, "So? You wanna go out or something?" That was pretty direct, this girl was a shocker. And I don't mean a shock-absorber but somebody who gave me recurrent shocks. Speaking of shocks, I turned my wrist and looked at my G-Shock watch. It was close to ten now. 

Pretentiously thoughtfully, I said, "I don't think so, really, gonna leave for Grand Canyon early tomorrow. Plus, my parents are along, you know."

For a moment I thought she made a sad face, but the very next moment she was smiling again as her blissfully pink lips pronounced something I forgot to pay attention to. She, probably, was commenting on how wonderful the Grand Canyon was. By the time I regained my sense of comprehension, I only heard her say, "The shop is open till 11:30 anyway, in case you happen to change your mind."

I forced my line of sight off her lips and into her eyes and I spoke, "Sure, yeah. I'll keep that in mind." "Nice to meet you," she said while picking up the boxes and moving backwards. I carboned her statement adding a 'too' of my own as I turned back to the mirror wondering what was it about me that attracted this stranger.

I was wearing a check deep-blue shirt with two upper buttons open and sleeves folded up to the elbows with a light blue pair of jeans and likewise blue, sleek sneakers. My face was small, my body was thin barring my broad shoulders and my hair sported a crew cut. I thought I looked okay and the most likeable part about me must've been my shoes, maybe my watch. Having checked my whole profile out myself, I realised I hadn't gone beyond her face either.

Within the very scape of the mirror, I saw her wearing a peach, sleeveless crop top that really complimented her fair colour teamed with light blue denim shorts that matched the colour of my jeans. Thin, she was as much as I, and her top really outlined her figure well for me. Like my shirt must have - for her. She was beautiful.

We left the shop at ten past ten after my parents had bought three pairs of shoes for themselves and we exchanged those customary smiles - me and her - as I turned to leave. It was eleven fifteen by the time we had had a quick meal and were on the last hundred-meter stretch that would lead us to The Mirage. No metaphor here, that was the name of our hotel. 

Thoughts of her hadn't left me for a minute since. My mind kept pestering me that it was only going to take a half-hour to walk back to Planet Hollywood and that I could still make it in time if I ran a little. This was the only chance I had to make my Vegas trip worth it. She would be waiting, said my mind to me and "Can I go for a walk? I'm not so sleepy," said I to my parents. We stopped in our path and my parents looked bewildered at my statement. Even before my mother could throw properly at me her questioning look, I began, "The Mirage is at the centre of the strip. We're here for a very little time and we've seen only one side of the strip, which bothers me because tomorrow, as such, we'll be tired from the Canyon and there'll be no time after that. And my thirst will remain unquenched - for seeing the other side of the strip, I mean." The whole of my statement was a lie. When we had landed the previous night, I had been allowed to go for a walk alone and the other side of the strip was what I had seen. I had come back only by 2 am and my parents knew that was the tentative time they were looking at for that night too. They looked at each other and then they looked at me. Finally, "Don't be too long," said mom and added, "The bus to the Grand Canyon leaves at five."

I smiled. "I know, I won't." How much more coolness can you expect out of your parents?  I walked till prudence said my parents could see me and started to run once out of their line of sight. One good thing about the sin-city so far had been that nobody cared, no matter what you were up to, what you wore or whatever. But a seventeen-year-old foreigner, running like mad, trying to make his way through the thick crowd still appeared a sight to behold and I felt piercing stares all over my body. All over, yes. Nevertheless, I stopped running only once I reached the entrance of the hotel. Then I started walking, brisk, taking deeper breaths to regulate them. My watch said it was 11:40 pm to my grief and I could only hope she would still be there. Most of the other shops had shut down - in the manner that the lights had not been turned off, only the glass doors had been locked and you could still look into the desolated shops through them if you so pleased. I hoped I would not have to do that and that she would still be there.

When I reached the shop, there was nobody inside. I moved in closer and attempted looking behind the apparent pillar at the centre of the shop - just in case, but soon disappointment poured and I took a step back. And then she rose up with a jerk, pulling her top down, her back towards me. I looked down from where she had risen and realised she had been fastening the lock which happened to be at the bottom of the door. I also noticed that she wore pinkish bellies, matching, vaguely, her top, still pointing the shop; and that they soon turned to confront my feet. I looked up at her face. It instantaneously lit up.

"Hi Jessica, again." I smiled. 

"Hi Mr. Indian. My name is Jessica Mathews, not Jessica Again," she laughed, "and friends call me Jess."

"Oh!" I said, "Do I qualify already?"

She laughed again, charmed, "You can call me Jess." Her voice was a chime. "So finally changed your mind, eh, Mr. Indian?"

"I guess."

"Do you want me to continue calling you Mr. Indian, or do you possess a name?"

Even though I didn't mind her continuing to call me that, I told her, "My name is Sahej."

"That's such a unique name!" She exclaimed.

"Yeah I'm sure no one in America names their kids that," I commented and she showed me all her teeth. "So are we going to stand here all night and guard the uber-precious shoes?"

She laughed again before she spoke. "Where do you want to go?"

"What if you come to India, to my city?" I snapped promptly. "Won't I be responsible for the event managing part?"

"Okay I get it, come let's start walking." And we did, start walking, towards the hotel exit. Once out, we started walking further ahead on the strip, away from Hollywood, away from The Mirage, metaphorically yet not. The pimps of the city were bountifully active at this time in their gaudy yellow, green and red t-shirts all with the slogan 'Direct to your room,' distributing trump size cards featuring near-nude girls and the numbers of the agencies. Of course I'd been a recipient to a few but only when I was alone, the previous night.

Jess and I got talking after few moments of silent, observant walking. I told her I was from Punjab, in the north of India and that this was my first visit to Vegas, the US too. She told me she was from Indiana, midwest America, here for work. I told her about my visit to Mexico before this, about how fascinating and dreamlike it had been; and I told her how I found Vegas even more fascinating and dreamlike. She laughed.

We passed the Harley Davidson Café which had this giant Harley Davidson motorbike tearing out of the façade; we passed the M&M's world and post the MGM Grand, we turned left just when she stopped, turned to look at me and said, "Hey! I hope you know the rules."

"What rules?"

"What happens in Vegas," she said dramatically, "stays in Vegas," and winked. 

She said it so cutely, I poked her nose lightly. "Well, I'm a writer, so I can't really assure you of that."

"Man! I've been wondering all this while!" She exclaimed. "What?" I asked.

"You're not normal," she said plainly. 

"Whhaaaat?" I made a face and she had a hearty laugh. We continued walking; off the strip now. Less lights, no crowd. No people, in fact. It was as if all life there was found solace only on the strip. I was aware there were smaller inns and motels off the strip in Vegas but here, it looked like either the people who stayed in motels believed in sleeping early or they just did not believe in sleeping and spent their nights getting wasted in one of the casinos or nightclubs of the sin city. I liked this newfound milieu, it smelt less of sin and more of oxygen. And being here was fascinating considering being in Vegas at the same time. It was like finding a flower garden in a coal factory. Weather was humid, nonetheless, for Las Vegas, Nevada is quintessentially a desert, you should know. 


A little more walking, a few more turns which I lost track of to her bittersweet anecdotes, from back home and from here, we reached an unknown open space. Unknown to me, of course. Benches, green and yellow, lay aligned along the curb on one side and right across the benches were at least ten little synthetic shacks serving an array of local cuisine. In the centre were cheap plastic tables with few chairs around them, arranged in a straight line all parallel to the shacks and the benches. In the backdrop, I could see the giant high roller wheel. This, she later told me, was recently built and was the largest observation wheel in the world. It was post-midnight but the shacks still didn't look out of business. Most people around here were in some or the other uniform, few of which I recognised from the hotels I'd visited, and nothing looked anything but American. So this, I was made to understand, was a humble, cheap eatery for the employees in unforgivingly expensive Vegas. And it ran twenty four hours. A flower garden in a coal factory - and pink roses there to top it. 

She asked me what I'd have and I said almost instantly, "Anything that's not American!" 

She made a face and in her signature cute fashion asked, "Why?"

"Because American food is bland," I candidly said.

"Spices?"
"My tongue craves."
"Mexican!"
"Sure."

She moved to the Mexican food bar and I followed, we ordered two chicken burritos - for she had this stubborn policy of "I'll have what you'll have" no matter how much I insisted she have something of her taste - which, by rule came with tortilla chips and salsa. Tortilla are nothing but the spice-less version of nachos and burritos are a jumbo version of the Indian Kathi Rolls. I paid, insistently, and by the time she occupied one of the tables I got two hot coffees.

The food was delicious, undoubtedly delicious. We ate slowly amidst wholesome conversation. On occasions, she laughed heartily at my attempts to take giant bites from the burrito and I laughed at her cuteness. I asked her what drove her to talk to me and "India," she replied. Patriotism burst as a reflex and then, I talked at stretch about how much I loved my country and how my country was not bad at all and how I was proud for there was so much to be proud of and I talked about my concerned ambitions regarding my nation. When I was finished and I looked at her, she just kept staring at me, her face in her hands. "What?" I said.

"You. Are. Sooooo cute," she lingered and paused and thought and added, "Can I kiss you?"

She caught me in an awkward moment, I must admit, and I didn't really have an answer. And when there's no option, honesty holds your hand, and throat, so I said, "I have a girlfriend."

The sole awkward pause of the entire evening; her sad face was not the best of sights. "But hey, aren't we having such a wonderful time here?" This gave her a halfhearted smile. I added, "Smile sweetie, they stopped making such heavenly smiles long back. Yours is limited addition." So she was beaming again, gleaming, shining bright; dawn in the night.

We sat there, without realising, for two hours, talking and laughing and smiling and talking. One look at the watch and I panicked. I exclaimed how doomed I was and how much my parents would be worrying and how much scolding this would account for. Her hand crawled over the table and held mine. I looked at her and she said, "Coming to Las Vegas daily, are we? Don't spoil your trip, Sahej, don't spoil the moment. Calm! Calm! Caaaalm!" And like magic, a sudden calm was transferred from her eyes to mine, from her hands to mine, and from under the table. "Come, I'll walk you home." 

So we got up, smiling, and walked back, smiling. "Hey what's your age, by the way?" I questioned. 

"20." My face must have given it out, for she said, "Don't say it, I know, kiddo."

On the way, she pointed to a set of apartments and told me she lived there. Her face spoke a million hopes and my face just sheepishly wore the expression of I-can't-do-anything-I-gotta-go! Once back on the strip, we hugged, agreed we'd both had a great time and promised to stay in contact. Then she saw me running away and not looking back. 

I reached my room at 3.15 am and my father woke and groggily said, "Ass! Got any contacts?"

So that's when it struck me. We'd not, in the least, exchanged e-mail IDs. 

The End.

~
This is one story I guarantee I can recite better than I can write. So if you ever meet me, dear stranger, ask me. :)

Also (this can be disappointing, so read at your own risk) - this story is adulterated (not 'pure') fiction. Obviously fiction is inspired by reality, but, you know, very little part of this is real, so... Forgive me?

Friday, April 17

Lightening her mood..

*originals*

Lightening her mood is my presumed, pleasurable duty. Out of the blue, getting my throat closer to the phone, I say, "You know your voice is like music, like magic!"
"Hmm," she mumbles indifference.
"It soothes my soul," I render my statement reason and support.
"Mhmm," I can see it working in her melting voice.
"Your lips are like chocolate!" So I continue.
She chooses to project her interest, "Hmmmm..?"
"I love to eat them."
"Hahaha! Hehe!!" It's working. It's working. It's working!
"Your eyes..."
She's eager of course, "Hmm-hmm??"
"Your eyes are like..umm..lemme see!" A dramatic pause, the situation craves. Suits me. For the climax I avail thought.
"Mmm...bolooo!" Impatience, coherent, her volume resonates.
"Your eyes are like RED-CARPET," I grandly announce.
A delighted laughter ensues. And a confused "Eh?"
I'm silent. But her eager mumble interrogates. A deep breath, a smile and I feed her intrigue, "They make me feel like a superstar!"
"Awe, you're too good man," comes almost as reflex.
"That is perhaps the best thing I've said to you by far."
"Yeah." She smiles through the phone. Mission accomplished.

Thursday, April 9

Innovation is life

Disclaimer: The following article is by Robin Sharma, the famous leadership guru and the author of this blog claims no rights over the article whatsoever.

This article is being published here because it really influenced me and it can actually prove very useful for a successful life:-

True innovators have a mantra: “The enemy of the best is the good.” They are constantly daring to make things better. What others call impossible they see as probable. They live out of their imaginations-not their memories. They live to challenge the commonly accepted. They assume nothing. They see no limits.

To them, everything’s possible. If you want to be a leader, I have a simple suggestion: Just keep innovating. Innovate at work. Innovate at home. Innovate in your relationships. Innovate in the way you run your life. Innovate in terms of the way you see the world. To become stagnant is to begin to die. Growth, evolution and reinvention sustain life. Sure it can be scary. But wouldn’t you rather feel your fear than play small with your life?

There’s no safety in being the same person today that you were yesterday. That’s just an illusion that ends up breaking your heart when you get to the end of your life and realise that you missed out on living it boldly.

Lasting fulfilment lives out in the unknown. When I was a kid, my dad used to tell me: “Robin, it’s risky out on the limb. But, son-that’s where all the fruit is.” And to play out on the skinny branch, you need to innovate. Daily. Relentlessly.

Of course, the more you innovate and refuse to be bound by the chains of complacency, the more you will fail. Not every risk you take and not everything you try will work out as planned. That’s just life happening. Failure truly is essential to success. And the more you stretch, the farther you will reach. Failure is a gift anyway.

Failure has been helpful to me. It’s taken me closer to my dreams, equipped me with more knowledge and toughened me up so I’m more prepared. Success and failure go hand in hand. They are business partners.

One of pharmaceutical giant GlaxoSmithKline’s organising values is “disturb.” Love it. Makes me think of the words of Motorola CEO Ed Zander: “At the height of success, ‘break’ your business.” Companies that don’t innovate don’t survive, so the key is driving this innovation.
The lesson is especially important when things are going well. Though it’s counterintuitive, successful companies actually need to be more innovative than the competition.

It’s like kids playing king of the hill-everyone aims for the kid at the top. Leaders that don’t innovate are displaced by those willing to take risks. So go to work each day and refuse to do the same thing you did yesterday-just because it was what you did yesterday.

Keep challenging yourself to think better, do better and be better. Shake thinks up. Confront your limitations. Refuse to be average. Stand for what’s best. Commit to being breathtakingly great in all you do. And that’s what you’ll become, sooner than you think.

-Robin Sharma

Saturday, April 4

Short Story - Fiction

*originals*


'But they will kill me,' said Suri to his wife.

'I don't care if they do,' she lied. Just like he had been lying all these days. He told her he had found a job - in a way he had.

But it was not long before Sarla aunty from the neighbourhood basti had come shouting to her one evening, 'Malti! Malti! Your husband is a goon. He is working for Yunee Khan, the local don. Has been, I'd say. For five months!' She had said it with such sadistic pleasure, Malti just couldn't digest it. As if this wasn't enough to give her a headache, she unflinchingly added, 'I have also heard that he is now Khan's special man. Khan will not sacrifice him for anything.' As her voice reverberated in the scanty room of the basti and the congested lobes of her ear, Malti made a firm resolve. Suri would have to stop doing this.

That night, that very night she confronted her husband and asked him to leave the job, or whatever it was he was doing. She had loved him with all her heart and had eloped home to marry him several months back. She knew him inside-out and it was so clear that Suri himself hated what he was doing. The pressure of running a new-found family, however, ruled his choices and that must have lead him to give in to whatever came his way.

'But they will kill me,' said Suri to his wife.

'I don't care if they do,' she lied. It was so hard to say this. Her own dialogue gave her jitters when she thought about it. That night was a sleepless night; the next morning would be dreadful.

'Sir, I want to quit, I cannot continue,' he said, head bent, standing opposite his apparent master, Yunee Khan.

'You are making a mistake, Suri,' Khan's gruff voice commented. He spoke in a tone which sounded more like a father speaking to his innocent son.

'I am bound to, sir.' Suri coherently saw what was coming. He knew it already. Khan looked up, his deep black eyes piercing into his own. And then he spoke again.

'So what would your last wish be?'

Even as a chill ran up Suri's spine, he said it without a lapse, 'I want to die in my wife's arms, sir.' He had this answer prepared, he had said it over an over in his mind all morning till it became a cinch. While a section of the thug crowd that surrounded them gasped, a few others sniggered. Suri could not care less, not in the last few breaths of his.

Malti was brought in. She came running up the stairs to the terrace. The same terrace where her husband stood and mindlessly heard praises for his hooliganism, all day; and thought about her and her well-being, all day. Malti was not aware of what was going to happen. She just rushed forward as her eyes caught the sight of her husband's back, with open arms.

While the familiar sound of his wife's anklets in swift motion hit his ears, Suri turned back with a jolt and opened his arms the next instant. His strong body took a backward jerk as Malti's chest almost bumped into his. Both set of arms locked instantly and both pair of eyes immediately shut in passion.

What Malti saw when she opened her eyes shocked her. Yunee Khan, with his back to a grandiose chair, rather sofa, had his arm straight, the hand of which held a magnificent GLOCK pistol pointed right at the nape of her husband. As she saw his finger moving in slow motion, without another thought, she jerked the entity in her arms around. Still in her gyrate motion, she felt a sharp bullet penetrate the back of her head which caused her to fall forward, further into the arms of her beloved.

Khan's eyes popped out of their sockets as he got up off his chair, his left arm pushing the arm of the chair down. Suri's closed eyes smiled at him over his wife's living corpse. Khan aimed in the middle of his forehead and sent him falling to the ground on his back.

Suri's lips curved upwards even as his back hit the ground beneath hard and his wife fell over him, still curled up in his arms, her arms around him. His lips still smiled, his senses, all, smiled. Had he opened his eyes, they would have smiled for sure. But never once did he open his eyes - the last thing they had seen while living was his wife and that's how he wanted it to be.

With whatever voice he could muster off his dying throat, he whispered into his wife's ears, 'I told you I was destined to die in your arms.' As their bodies steadily stopped the struggled breathing motion, her closed eyes twitched and her lips managed to smile, too.